finding a friend

This will be a sloppy post because I am typing on my phone. ..I was thinking that maybe I would start blogging more since I have really no friends here. That is besides my husband. Really I have NO friends. It is pretty lonely!  Since I went to college in 99  and got married we. have lived in really GREAT communities until 2013. I now have an idea of what a dessert might feel like.  Yeh, it sucks! But I am glad I have my faith. It teaches me there is a reason. Providence planned this. God knew it would be lonely here. For some reason this is the best place for me right now. I ask myself why? I really have to pray about it. Because it is hard to see why or maybe it is just hard for me to accept why. Perhaps we are here because my husband is awesome at talking about the faith and I am great at smiling and nodding while he talks ( just kidding but kind of serious)! He really does have a gift for talking to people. I LOVE that about him!
Anyways, have I mentioned it is lonely here...maybe I just have cabin fever. I do open up our curtains even during the night and just stare and image warm weather...today was -21 with wind chill....don't cry for us though (I already did).  when we lived in Richmond, VA I remember I asked my dear neighbor if it was ok to take my kids out in the jogging stroller in 40 degree weather...here though it is a different story! I made my kids play outside last week when it was 16 degrees and I have taken them grocery shopping in a blizzard and told them it was "ok" and "we'll have fun"!
But you get desperate when your stuck inside ALL THE TIME :)

Now for a side note Emma just turned one  Jan. 20. She is so smart!  When she learns something it sticks! she just learned to walk and it is all she wants to do. I am soooo proud of her! Charlie, he is strong! He can run and head butt me in the upper thigh and I want to cry! It hurts so bad. Yes, he is all boy! But maybe he will be an actor because he spends all day being Elsa, anna, rapazzel (he's eccentric) or ect. Lucy, she is into crafts like no other!!! Crafts or crap is EVERYWHERE! I really don't know what to do about it. I have a love hate relationship with it!!! At the moment I love it but tomorrow when I find pieces of toilet paper all over the living room as some sort of fairy dust then I will hate it!

Now I must say good night and it was nice to pretend I am talking to a " friend".