You ever have one of those days that just seem like it is one bad thing after another???? Today is that day for me! I just want to go back to bed and start over. But the issues that arose today are still going to be there tomorrow and I have to face them. One thing about having children is that I can't just mope and lie around like I used to if I were unhappy. I have to act like everything is o.k because they are watching me so closely even though I just want to sit on the couch and cry!!!!
I was looking forward until Christmas but I just want it to be over with!!!! I could just scream! This is my situation in a nut shell. We ended up going up to NY to see Dh's best friend and family and relatives for Thanksgiving because my family was out of town and Dh's best friend's mother has been diagnosed with cancer and is undergoing treatments...long story. Anyways, Thanksgiving SUCKED! We were up there for 8 days. The kids and us were exhausted! Charlie got sick after a few days and both kids slept horribly which means we slept horribly as well. I was exhausted from bad nights of sleep and super lonely. Dh spent 6 out of 8 nights at best friend's mother's house while I went to bed with the kids. I just like to spend holidays especially close with Dh and now that we are going up to NY again for Christmas it's going to be me and the kids alone again a lot of the time. I know that there will be his family for him to pass me off to but do you ever feel like you can visit with everyone and still feel like your all by your self? i don't want to spend Christmas up there this year!!!!!!!! I want to wake up in my own house with the children's stalkings hanging, baking some nice things, having a Christmas Tree, and a baby Jesus in our manager, making traditions, and spending quality TIME TOGETHER! Now we will be staying in a empty house, just us, that is so unfamiliar to me and the kids. I am so angry that I don't have a say so in this. I have already cried about this tonight. I am so BUMMED OUT. That I am not looking forward to Christmas this year. Let's just get it over with and move on! I am not saying that I don't want to go to NY at all during Christmas but why not just a couple days after Christmas????WHY?WHY? WHY? I am off to bed because I can't even think straight about this. I am FUMING!
By the way, I don't have time to edit this post so it is seriously a ranting post. may not even make sense ;)
Oh, A, I am SO sorry! It sucks that you can't look forward to Christmas. And I totally get wanting to start traditions in your OWN house. And I also get feeling like you are alone even when you are with a roomful of people. Can you try to talk to him about it and maybe compromise? Like, you go to NY, but he stays with you? That is so generous of him to help his friend's mother, but maybe he could help just a little less and not spend the night? It must be so hard to deal with all of this. I'll be praying that it can all work out.
ReplyDeleteOhhh I feel for you. We fortunately dont' live so far away from extened family so traveling is a non-issue but we still had to establish a few rules once we had kids of our own. Last year we went to Mass as a family and then stayed home to open presents. I usually don't mind Christmas dinner with extended family, but I imagine it's different for someone who feels lonely because her husband is caught between your little family and his extended family.
ReplyDeleteIs there a way to compromise and do every other year in NY? And the years off, you can stay home? Or maybe you can come home earlier than usual and celebrate on your own? I hope it all gets figured out.
I'm so sorry A! I want to cry for you too! I completely understand why you'd want to stay home for Christmas. I hope you're able to reach some type of compromise...prayers! Let's have a drink together in the meantime....can you guys make it over to our house on Saturday?!!!! I'll pour you one! :)
ReplyDeleteAww, that sounds so stressful! I would definitely want to stay home and do a family Christmas, too :(.
ReplyDeleteCant you tell your DH..."NO"...stay home. Will he object?
ReplyDeleteHey I don't need to say anything... You know what I'm thinking!!
ReplyDeletePraying your Advent and Christmas will be filled with many blessings and peacefulness:)
P.S hoping we'll be together;)
Xo bsq!
Hey I don't need to say anything... You know what I'm thinking!!
ReplyDeletePraying your Advent and Christmas will be filled with many blessings and peacefulness:)
P.S hoping we'll be together;)
Xo bsq!