PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's official I am PREGNANT again! I can't believe it!!!!! Dh and I are on cloud 9 if not higher :) After a scare at the beginning of the week we got the next set of results back today and PPVI said "You are pregnant, CONGRATULATIONS!".

OH MY GOODNESS! I still can't believe it. It is super early yet so of course I am nervous, scarred, worried, but so joyful and full of hope that this little baby will stick. I am starting progesterone treatments again 2 shots 2x a week.

On Sunday I took at test just for fun...it was soooo faint. On Monday I took a few more tests and they were + and faint lines as well. I got my blood drawn and PPVI said the levels were low enough that they thought it was just a chemical pregnancy. I told them I know I ovulated REALLY late. But they really sounded doubtful about everything and said God works in mysterious ways and to go get my numbers retested in 48 hours. I was thinking yes he does so if you're not going to give me progesterone I am going to get it myself. I went to my bedroom drawer where all my old medicines are stashed and took 100mg oral progesterone. Then I proceeded to mope on the couch the last two days waiting for AF to start. Then today I went and got my blood drawn again to see the HCG results and they practically quadrupled! I am ecstatic! Over the moon HAPPY! Please say a prayer for us that this pregnancy will be a healthy one. I am due April 2nd!!!! By the way for those of you who know me in real life we are keeping this a SECRET from all friends for the next couple of months so please don't tell a soul:)

Sleep Question?

Lucy is 11 months. She still wakes up 1-2 times at night and a couple times during the week 3 times a night. Is this normal. I feel so tired right now dealing with this. Not to mention I have major PMS right now that makes me feel crazy!!! Now that she can sit up on her own she wakes up during the night and tries to sit up right away. This is not a good thing because then it just takes her longer to go back to sleep. I am thinking maybe if her room were cooler she would sleep better. Her monitor in her bedroom says 85 degrees when she goes to sleep. Our upstairs where the bedrooms are located gets crazy hot and the window unit in her room just can't keep it very cool. I noticed she doesn't wake up as often when it is about 75 degrees in her room. Any ideas of how to cool down her room? I keep the black out curtains drawn closed all day and a fan blowing on her, plus the window unit set at its coolest...what else can I do?
I think I am just cranky, PMSy, tired, and I know she would be happier too if she woke up less often. Oh, I forgot to mention that every time she wakes up she wants to nurse back to sleep. When we were on vacation she slept next to me and I would wake up as soon as I heard her start to rouse herself and I would pat her back to sleep. That seemed to do the trick but even then I am still having to wake up. I feel so selfish just wanting to sleep more, I can't escape the mommy guilt!

Finally home and experience?

Does anyone have any experience with babies adjusting after vacations? We are finally home now. Our trip home took us from Tuesday afternoon to Thursday afternoon. We ended up stopping at my brother and SIL's house for a detour on our trip home since Lucy was crazy cranky! Poor baby girl was so tired of the drive. Lesson learned: start on a road trip early in the morning! What were we thinking? Clearly we weren't thinking, haha! After staying the night with my brother we then stayed the falling night at my parents home in Richmond since my sister was in town, boy I miss her living here. Anyways, now we are finally home :) Lucy isn't sleeping well here though. No nap and now she has already woken up every hour she has been asleep tonight...hmmm, adjusting? Any experience with this? Any advice? I am guessing after being gone for three weeks it will take here a few days to adjust to being home. I plan on keeping her home and keeping things low key for a few days so she can adjust that we are home :) Ah! So nice to be back!

As for pictures...there coming...I do promise...I just have to unpack first...my house is upside down at the moment :)

Heading home :)

We're heading home tomorrow morning :) We have been in NY now for 17 days! I think after reading my last post I was deleriously tired. But now that Lucy's cold is gone and she has been sleeper better, not great, but still better I feel much better. It will be so nice to sleep in my own bed again!!! I love that feeling of returning home after vacation to you're own bed. We have never been away from home this long but with the way my Dh's job worked out this summer it made things possible for us to be more flexible with our traveling plans.

Lucy has changed so much in the last couple of weeks. First of all her nursin gincreased significantly which I loved of course. Secondly, she started crawling! Well, she is not super fast yet but she is sure determined :) Also, she can sit up now on her own and she is new words like "s-that" (what's that) and she points to the object she is asking about, or she says, Jesus and Mama and Dada on cue. So precious!!! She will be 11 months old tomorrow. I can't believe it! I want her to stay a little baby in my arms but it is so nice to see her personality developing :) She loves parties, people, and especially children/ babies right now. She gets so excited around her cousins.

I'll have to post pictures when we get home tomorrow. Please say a prayer for us that we have a safe drive home tomorrow :) thanks.

P.s. I had mentioned that my ovulation test last month was +. I was wrong it was -. I just didn't read the directions correctly, haha. I am on CD 24 this month, P+3 maybe but I gave up charting this cycle...just not that into it this cycle.

Vacation

We're on vacation up in Syracuse NY visiting with my husbands side of the family. We have been here 11 days (who's counting) and dh says he is not sure when were going back...maybe in a week or longer. I really don't mind being up here but Lucy has been sleeping horribly and I feel like a cranky walking zombie most of the time. I am able to take naps so I am not sure why I am so freaking tired I feel like most of the time. I am not sure if it has to do with the fact the my diet up here has been crapy. I am bound to return home 15 pounds heavier!!!! We eat a lot of junk up here but we really have no choice. I kind of have to eat what is served, right? Anyways, I feel very sluggish and frustrated with myself because I wish I just had that get up and go that I am seriously lacking!!! I have a tired headache most of the day and feel like I am in a fog for a few hours every eafternoon. Is that dramatic enough :)I can't emphasis this enough. Lucy is sick with a cold at the moment (again) but I think it has to do with playing with her cousins who have been sick. She just loves playing with the other children up here. She is one of 54 grandchildren so needless to say there are plenty of babies for her to play with here. Too cute!!!

Anyways, I am on CD 17 today. I haven't really been charting to well this cycle partly because Lucy has increased her nursing while up here on vacation so I am sure that would throw off my cycle so now I am taking a break from TTC this month. That means no blood draw. By the way, last cycle I did take a ovulation prediction test and it was positive so I am still puzzled why my levels were so low. Maybe in a couple of cycles it will straighten out.

This seems like a boring post to me so I am going to wrap it up :)

P+8 results! + pic.s

I got my P+8 results today and I am really bummed to say the least. I am blogging about this because not many people around me understand the results as my blogger friends do (except for my sister who I swear knows more about Creighton Charting than I do now). O.k. so my progesterone was 1.8 and my Estrodial was 2.0. WTH? Right! I had two peaks this cycle and the real peak day was on CD22. I had cramping on that day and abdominal bloating like I used to with ovulating. I then got my blood drawn on P+8 because I forgot to on P+7...I started my period though the very next day! Needless to say I am so frustrated by that but I thought oh well. I am sure PPVI will give me something to get started on for TTC. I thought wrong! After $145 they said not to do anything this cycle since they don't know what to make of my results and we'll have to wait and see what next P+7 results are.
I guess I am just annoyed that I spent all that money when we didn't have extra just to hear that I have wait until next time. I am also disappointed because I wanted to start this month!!!!
I should probably get used to paying for treatment now...I calculated that if I start up on everything I was on to get pregnant with Lucy then that would be about $500 a month. If I skip a few of the things I was taking/doing then that would be $400 a month. I have been thinking of ways to help pay this and girls the wheels are turning!
Maybe I will get pregnant on my own and not need any treatment but with these results I am already skeptical. This was my third cycle after pregnancy so maybe it's just taking a bit for it to straighten out.

Lucy is getting so big!!! She is a little over ten months now and I want to gobble up her cuteness. I am such a proud mama!!!! We had such a great 7 year anniversary with our little baby by our side. I kept thinking during our anniversary dinner "all these anniversaries and we finally have our baby girl sitting with us, A.M.A.Z.I.N.G!

Quick update! Happy nine months Lucy :)

My sister's wedding is in a couple days! This Saturday her life will be forever shared with her Fiance, Greg. Amazing how marriage makes a couple one. Such a blessing. Things have been cray here with trying to do errands and last minute things to help out my sister. I can't believe how much having a baby slows me down!!!!!!!! It takes me forever to get errands or cleaning done. My in-laws are invited to the wedding as well so I am trying to get my house de-cluttered and organized or at leased a basic cleaning done before they arrive. I just need someone to come and sit and entertain Lucy and watch her for me so I can frantically clean my house. It's funny how cleaning gets neglected because when she is awake I want to play wither, do errands, change her diaper, feed her, change her diaper again, feed her again, etc. Then when she sleeps no cleaning anywhere where she can hear me moving around. Um that is most of the house so I am just frozen to sit and read a book, haha! That's my excuse anyways!

On a side note, I didn't manage to lose all the baby weight for my sister's wedding. I am trying to NOT think about it at ALL! (not really working) I am grateful to have a baby and if weight is the price I have to pay for her then oh well. I'll have after the wedding to keep working on it.

I can't believe again that my sister is getting married!!!! Selfishly I don't want her to get married and have to share her with another person. It's nice having her time all to my self. I don't want her to move away! She'll only be a couple of hours away but she is my best friend! I know this sounds really selfish and it is. Don't get me wrong. I really am happy for her and Greg. They are perfect for each other and I just know she is going to be very happy!

O.k. I am off to frantically clean up my house while Lucy is sleeping.

Oh, how can I almost forget. Lucy is 9 MONTHS today! Oh my sweet baby girl is developing such a strong personalty. I love getting to know the big baby she is becoming...she is getting in her 3rd and 4th teeth, scooting all over the place, clapping her hands, waving good bye, eating at least one a day of baby food, she can kind of say "da-da" and "ma-ma"! I LOVE hearing her voice! She is so precious to me.

CD update: I am on P+15. I am not pregnant though. I think my cycle is just not normal because I am breastfeeding. I took a dollar store pregnancy test a couple of days ago and I it was a BFN. So, I am looking forward to next cycle. I feel crampy and my nipples really ache to nurse right now, the same as last month before AF arrived.

Well, I am off for a crazy busy next couple of days!