A bit of an update :)

So. I over nighted my progesterone Sat. morning so that I could get the results yesterday. The lab at PPVI still didn't have my blood work today so it has been officially lost in the mail. UGH! So frustrating. I went this afternoon to get my progesterone re-drawn and thought I might as well get my HCG levels checked out again. I am 5 weeks 1 day and my HCG is 1675. YEH! I am relieved. Grow baby grow!!!! Dr. H wants me to begin the antibiotic again that I took last pregnancy and I can continue with baby aspirin and nursing. Finally some answers to my questions. I feel like I can breath a little easier now that I got my HCG levels retested. When I miscarried they only ever made to 1200 at almost 7 weeks so I was worried.

Anyways, it has been very tiring here lately. Lucy had a fever yesterday afternoon and then woke up late yesterday evening and threw up everywhere. Poor baby. She cried and cried and was hot and achy all night. She was up a lot!!! Oh, it just breaks my heart to see her sick like that. She has continued to throw up today. So I have just been nursing her and not giving her any solids. I wish there was more I could do for her. You would think she would sleep more but no she wants to lay in my arms and watch Little Pim, priceless!!!

We are going up to my sister's house Friday for her hubby's birthday party. Can't wait! PARTY!!!!

So surreal...

I am now 5 weeks pregnant. Early huh? I woke up this morning at 4:30am to nurse Lucy and now I am wide awake thinking about this pregnancy. I know I shouldn't worry and just enjoy this time but I really can't help myself. I wish I could keep finding out every single day how things are going but I know that's not possible. I think I am going to get my HCG numbers re-drawn next week to see if they are still doubling. I feel like after miscarry and going through infertility I have a REALLY hard time trusting my body. Really the only pregnancy symptom I have had so far is just being tired in the evening. Very tired. I know I usually complain about being tired anyways but now I really feel much more tired if that were possible, haha! Dh also says I have been really irritable. Maybe I have :) Poor guy!
I have been debating about weaning Lucy while I am pregnant at the moment. I think I am going to start cutting her back to a couple nursings a day. Right now she still nurses about 6 times a day give or take. She really is a big nurser so I am not quite sure how to go about weaning her. Any advice??? I should find out my progesterone results today from PPVI. I am kind of anxious to hear how they are. I am on the progesterone shots but still I just can't help but worry how my levels are doing.

Right now being pregnant feels like a dream. Like it's not really "real" yet. Probably because it is so early. But I am already talking to this new baby growing inside me just like I did with Lucy. I feel so blessed right now. Thank you girls for your prayers. I really need them at the moment ;)

PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's official I am PREGNANT again! I can't believe it!!!!! Dh and I are on cloud 9 if not higher :) After a scare at the beginning of the week we got the next set of results back today and PPVI said "You are pregnant, CONGRATULATIONS!".

OH MY GOODNESS! I still can't believe it. It is super early yet so of course I am nervous, scarred, worried, but so joyful and full of hope that this little baby will stick. I am starting progesterone treatments again 2 shots 2x a week.

On Sunday I took at test just for fun...it was soooo faint. On Monday I took a few more tests and they were + and faint lines as well. I got my blood drawn and PPVI said the levels were low enough that they thought it was just a chemical pregnancy. I told them I know I ovulated REALLY late. But they really sounded doubtful about everything and said God works in mysterious ways and to go get my numbers retested in 48 hours. I was thinking yes he does so if you're not going to give me progesterone I am going to get it myself. I went to my bedroom drawer where all my old medicines are stashed and took 100mg oral progesterone. Then I proceeded to mope on the couch the last two days waiting for AF to start. Then today I went and got my blood drawn again to see the HCG results and they practically quadrupled! I am ecstatic! Over the moon HAPPY! Please say a prayer for us that this pregnancy will be a healthy one. I am due April 2nd!!!! By the way for those of you who know me in real life we are keeping this a SECRET from all friends for the next couple of months so please don't tell a soul:)

Sleep Question?

Lucy is 11 months. She still wakes up 1-2 times at night and a couple times during the week 3 times a night. Is this normal. I feel so tired right now dealing with this. Not to mention I have major PMS right now that makes me feel crazy!!! Now that she can sit up on her own she wakes up during the night and tries to sit up right away. This is not a good thing because then it just takes her longer to go back to sleep. I am thinking maybe if her room were cooler she would sleep better. Her monitor in her bedroom says 85 degrees when she goes to sleep. Our upstairs where the bedrooms are located gets crazy hot and the window unit in her room just can't keep it very cool. I noticed she doesn't wake up as often when it is about 75 degrees in her room. Any ideas of how to cool down her room? I keep the black out curtains drawn closed all day and a fan blowing on her, plus the window unit set at its coolest...what else can I do?
I think I am just cranky, PMSy, tired, and I know she would be happier too if she woke up less often. Oh, I forgot to mention that every time she wakes up she wants to nurse back to sleep. When we were on vacation she slept next to me and I would wake up as soon as I heard her start to rouse herself and I would pat her back to sleep. That seemed to do the trick but even then I am still having to wake up. I feel so selfish just wanting to sleep more, I can't escape the mommy guilt!

Finally home and experience?

Does anyone have any experience with babies adjusting after vacations? We are finally home now. Our trip home took us from Tuesday afternoon to Thursday afternoon. We ended up stopping at my brother and SIL's house for a detour on our trip home since Lucy was crazy cranky! Poor baby girl was so tired of the drive. Lesson learned: start on a road trip early in the morning! What were we thinking? Clearly we weren't thinking, haha! After staying the night with my brother we then stayed the falling night at my parents home in Richmond since my sister was in town, boy I miss her living here. Anyways, now we are finally home :) Lucy isn't sleeping well here though. No nap and now she has already woken up every hour she has been asleep tonight...hmmm, adjusting? Any experience with this? Any advice? I am guessing after being gone for three weeks it will take here a few days to adjust to being home. I plan on keeping her home and keeping things low key for a few days so she can adjust that we are home :) Ah! So nice to be back!

As for pictures...there coming...I do promise...I just have to unpack first...my house is upside down at the moment :)

Heading home :)

We're heading home tomorrow morning :) We have been in NY now for 17 days! I think after reading my last post I was deleriously tired. But now that Lucy's cold is gone and she has been sleeper better, not great, but still better I feel much better. It will be so nice to sleep in my own bed again!!! I love that feeling of returning home after vacation to you're own bed. We have never been away from home this long but with the way my Dh's job worked out this summer it made things possible for us to be more flexible with our traveling plans.

Lucy has changed so much in the last couple of weeks. First of all her nursin gincreased significantly which I loved of course. Secondly, she started crawling! Well, she is not super fast yet but she is sure determined :) Also, she can sit up now on her own and she is new words like "s-that" (what's that) and she points to the object she is asking about, or she says, Jesus and Mama and Dada on cue. So precious!!! She will be 11 months old tomorrow. I can't believe it! I want her to stay a little baby in my arms but it is so nice to see her personality developing :) She loves parties, people, and especially children/ babies right now. She gets so excited around her cousins.

I'll have to post pictures when we get home tomorrow. Please say a prayer for us that we have a safe drive home tomorrow :) thanks.

P.s. I had mentioned that my ovulation test last month was +. I was wrong it was -. I just didn't read the directions correctly, haha. I am on CD 24 this month, P+3 maybe but I gave up charting this cycle...just not that into it this cycle.

Vacation

We're on vacation up in Syracuse NY visiting with my husbands side of the family. We have been here 11 days (who's counting) and dh says he is not sure when were going back...maybe in a week or longer. I really don't mind being up here but Lucy has been sleeping horribly and I feel like a cranky walking zombie most of the time. I am able to take naps so I am not sure why I am so freaking tired I feel like most of the time. I am not sure if it has to do with the fact the my diet up here has been crapy. I am bound to return home 15 pounds heavier!!!! We eat a lot of junk up here but we really have no choice. I kind of have to eat what is served, right? Anyways, I feel very sluggish and frustrated with myself because I wish I just had that get up and go that I am seriously lacking!!! I have a tired headache most of the day and feel like I am in a fog for a few hours every eafternoon. Is that dramatic enough :)I can't emphasis this enough. Lucy is sick with a cold at the moment (again) but I think it has to do with playing with her cousins who have been sick. She just loves playing with the other children up here. She is one of 54 grandchildren so needless to say there are plenty of babies for her to play with here. Too cute!!!

Anyways, I am on CD 17 today. I haven't really been charting to well this cycle partly because Lucy has increased her nursing while up here on vacation so I am sure that would throw off my cycle so now I am taking a break from TTC this month. That means no blood draw. By the way, last cycle I did take a ovulation prediction test and it was positive so I am still puzzled why my levels were so low. Maybe in a couple of cycles it will straighten out.

This seems like a boring post to me so I am going to wrap it up :)