Happy 1st Birthday Lucy!

YEAH! HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my baby girl! I can't believe you're already one year old. This has been one of the happiest years of my life. Thank you sweet baby for being so wonderful! We are truly blessed. Today you spent the day crawling circles around the house and dragging all your toys out of the baskets. Tomorrow will be a big family birthday party for you. I got to be the first one to wish you happy birthday. I whispered it in your ear last night while I nursed you back to sleep. That memory I will treasure forever. Mommy and Daddy love you so much Lucy Marie.

P.s. Slide show to come tomorrow :)

Big disappointment!

Today's ultrA-sound was a bust! Meaning I didn't get to have one done :( I almost started crying right then and there.The whole appointment didn't have a good feel to it. I didn't click with the doctor (the midwives were booked and couldn't see me). i said to Dh "I certainly do NOT want that doctor at my delivery!" Anyways, the reason there wasn't an ultra-sound done is because you have to have an appointment first to confirm a pregnancy then they will call you and then you finally get to schedule your ultra-sound. So now I have to wait until next Thursday for the ultra-sound. I can't wait to see this wee one on screen :) I had my hcg drawn yesterday with my progesterone level. I still don't know what my progesterone is but my hcg came back at 33,838. YEAH! That sounds great to me!!! So now I am just counting the days until the next appointment. Lucy's birthday is on Friday and I am soooo excited for her! Ah, my baby girl is getting so big. I love that she sits at the bottom of our stairs in the morning while Dh is watching her and yells "maaaaa-maaaaa' super loud until I come down stairs. So precious!

Blogger silence...advice please

O.k. I know there is a lot of blogger silence out there lately, or so it seems. But if anyone has some thoughts about this post that would be great.

Now, do pregnancy symptoms differ from each pregnancy? I feel different this time than I did with Lucy. Everyone says "don't worry". Well, I am the worrying type. I am anxious person naturally so of course I worry as well. I just upped my ultrasound appointment to a week earlier because I just can;t handle the wait any longer. I am going in on this Wednesday. Any prayers spared would be very much appreciated. I was just bawling this morning about things and all of the "what ifs" because I just don't feel the same as I did when pregnant before.

I am trying to distract myself until the appointment but it is kind of hard thing to do. Anyone else feel different with their following pregnancies.

Lovely last few days...

Dh took Lucy and me on a LOVELY picnic on Friday. We ordered sandwiches at one of my favorite places (because I am to lazy to make them right now) and went to Maymont. I just love it there. We sat down by a creek and relaxed on a blanket. It was kind of hot but not to bad. Dh ended up putting Lucy in the creek in her diaper while I video taped them. It was so sweet to watch!!!It just melted my heart. Anyways, after that I got to go to a "girl" movie with my mom. That was fantastic. I have never been to movie theater like this one before. There were leather seats, wood floors, waiters,wonderful food and drinks, and it was fancy! I didn't want to leave, almost :) We watched the movie, The Help. Which was wonderful!!!! Great movie! We ordered chocolate cake and hummus with this yummie topping. Clearly I really enjoyed myself. i left there and bawling mess because I am just emotional and was thinking of Lucy in relation to one of the characters at the end and started crying, haha!

So I tracked down in my last posts about my pregnancy with Lucy that I didn't get morning sickness with her until my second trimester. This makes me feel much better! I wish I could just relax but honestly after dealing with infertility and miscarrying I have a difficult time trusting my body. I know I have said that before. But it's a fact. Infertility just SUCKS with the scars it leaves on women. Maybe I am just being sensitive about this but it is true. Anyways, i am not going to go on a tangent about this...

Dh just showed up with frozen yogurt so I have to run, yum!

Praying for morning sickness!

I know this sounds ridiculous but I really do wish I had morning sickness!!!! I didn't have it this early with Lucy either but it sure would make me feel more pregnant if I woke up sick or nauseous. I have been having a heck of time sleeping at night, insomnia, but during the day I am just so tired and have no energy to get things done.
On Friday I am going in for my progesterone lab draw and I think I am going to have them test my HCG #'s again. Maybe I shouldn't do that...I'll decide then :) But if I took my progesterone shot of 200mg on Tuesday late evening than can I get my blood drawn on Friday? Anybody know? I would call PPVI but I have decided lately since I have been so cranky that trying to talk to someone there is like trying to talk to the Wizard of Oz, seriously! This is driving me NUTS!!!
My ultrasound appointment has been moved to 8.5 weeks on August 25th. If only it would be here all ready. I am trying not to rush time and enjoy this last week and a half of Lucy before she is one. Can you believe she is going to be one? Just crazy! She certainly is acting like she is getting older. She is starting to feed herself with her fingers of course. She yells at me a lot when she wants something, and she is all over the house lately! Crawling everywhere. So precious! She watches everything and everyone so closely. She amazes me everyday!!!

Prayers for a fellow blogger!

Please pray for a blogger friend of mine whose little baby girl is in the hospital. Last I heard she went limp and her blood sugar is low. I know the blogger's prayers are very powerful when we all pray together so if any of you could please pray for her and her family today especially! Thank you!

On a side note: I got my progesterone results back. It is 17.7 which is middle of Zone 2. I need to stay on taking the shots. These results were taken the day after my hcg was 47. Anyways, my crp protein (or something like that) came back elevated which the nurse said could be a sign of inflammation or infection. I am on an antibiotic now which should help. I guess this could be cause for pre-term labor. Does anyone know anything about this? I am trying not to worry. As the nurse said, don't worry. Just get plenty of rest and drink fluids. The only symptom I really have at this point is being really tired in the evening...

Exhausted!

What a long week so far! I took Lucy to the doctors today and she has her first ear infection. This explains why she wouldn't nurse for the last almost 24 hours. I feel so bad. She is exhausted but won't sleep at night, hungry but wont eat or nurse, and plain old just doesn't feel well. She has been laying in my arms during the day moaning. It just breaks my heart to see her not feeling well!!!
Luckily she is now on an antibiotic and hopefully that will start working soon. As for myself i have been a huge bear! So cranky exhausted, EXHAUSTED. Just trying to survive. I don't do well without sleep and now that I am engorged and having to keep pumping I am super irritable. I just want sleep. So I am heading to bed now at 9:00pm. just so maybe I might get a couple hours of sleep uninterrupted. i feel like such a BIG baby right now. My husband is having to put up with my crankiness. He really deserves an award for bravery and patience if there is one :) Off to bed now... I have a date with my pillow.

I don't think I mentioned that Lucy weighs 25 pounds now, I am so proud of her :)