10 weeks!

Yesterday I was 10 weeks pregnant finally. I feel like this first trimester is the slowest thing ever just because I want to be sure everything is o.k. it is funny how I just can't be care free about this pregnancy. i really think that after dealing with infertility for so long that it just trained me to think in a distrustful way about my body. As if I am more prone to think my body is working against me than with me. I hate thinking like that or even having to talk myself out of thinking like that.

I was watching this clip on the p.regnology site of a fetus at 10 weeks. It really is amazing to think that at this stage the fetus is actually moving around...I am in aw over this!!! I just can't believe I am making it this far. Last time it was at ten weeks that I miscarried even though the baby had stopped growing at about 5 weeks.

I have to say a "BIG" thank you to one of the bloggers out there who has been so encouraging wit sharing such positive information with me about pregnancy and birth. I just love the information you have given me...yeh!

Other than this not much has been going on just because I am still so tired! I haven't even been over to visit AYWH for lunch because I feel like I am just trying to survive the day....sorry AYWH :( maybe in a couple weeks I'll be feeling up to it :)

Results!

I am using my sister's iPhone to post real quick since I don't have Internet. I got the results late Friday evening. My progesterone levels rose to ZONE 3! It is 29.2. The nurse asked for me to decrease my shots from 200mg to 100mg. I am kind of nervous about doing that but oh well. I am very excited about these results. I get to get them tested again in two weeks. Thank you all for the prayers :)

Happy Birthday to My Husband!

Today is Dh's 37th birthday, yeh, PPAAARRRTTTYYY!!!! We just love celebrating birthdays at our house. So usually the night before we'll do something special for either of our birthdays and then continue do special gestures through out the "birthday week". This time is different though. I couldn't stay awake until midnight to sing Happy Birthday to Dh. I couldn't wake up in time to cook a special breakfast. But as he reminded me "it's o.k. your doing a lot of work having the baby grow in you". Isn't that sweet of him?

I know my Dh doesn't read my blog to often but I just wanted to say how special he is to me. I am so glad that his mother chose life for her # 7 child on this day 37 years ago. I am so happy that God in His providence brought us together from NY and CA to finally meet in VA. Happy Birthday to my Sweetheart!

Now on to progesterone results...NOPE! Still don't have them! The nurse at PPVI just had me call the lab to see if they ever received them. The lab called back and said they did receive them but just not the doctors order with it and maybe she over looked it. Now I KNOW I put that order in the the envelope!!!! I remember folding it up quickly in the p.ost office line so noboby could see what it was and stuffing it in the overnight package. The fact that she didn't see it in there probably has slowed down getting the results...which they said aren't ready yet :(

Since I don't know what my results are I rushed home today on my lunch break for Dh to give me a shot in my bottom. Which (TMI) really bled a lot. Is that normal? Does that mean we're doing something wrong if there is a lot of blood? Well, I just can't wait to get home and sit on my heating pad, Oh heating pad I miss you, haha! Happy Friday!

Waiting on progesterone results

I am waiting for PPVI to call me tomorrow and let me know what my progesterone levels are. I am just praying they are going up or doing better than last time. I keep thinking everything must be going o.k. if I am still having pregnancy symptoms; sore breasts, hungry all the time, major acne problems, headaches if I am not drinking tons of water, and I am so tired I am in bed by eight or crying because I am tired and want to go to bed, haha! This is just me thinking out loud convincing myself that things are o.k. Honestly it would be nice to just be able to have an ultrasound everyday so I know things are o.k. even though I know that is really unrealistic! Oh, I almost forgot to mention that I had to call and cancel my acupuncture this week because we can't afford it. well, I had my sister call and pretend she was me because I was to embarrassed to cancel the appt. I am hoping that two weeks of skipping it won't do any harm, right? it's just that $80-$100 per week really adds up super fast!!!!

For those of you that have taken medications while pregnant, has anyone stayed on naltrexone 50mg, or hydrocortizone 5mg 4x per day? I thought last time I was pregnant that Dr. H. said it was up to me how long I stayed on naltrexone, but now I can't remember. I know I can just call PPVI about this but I thought I would wait until they call me tomorrow with the Progest. results.

Other than this not much has been going on. We are going out to my parent's house tonight for dinner and watch American Idol, yeh! My mom is such a wonderful cook that I always look forward to eating her food. Plus, food is my main focus lately, haha!

A Wonderful Surprise

I have got to say how HAPPY I am to find out that my sister and mom paid for a housekeeping service to come in and clean my frightening looking house. My sister started interviewing housekeepers about two weeks ago. It was pretty interesting. She had to write an add for it and I think she described me as crippled because people responded about her "poor sister" basically, haha! Anyways, fine with me as long as I get some help. Two of the ladies that intervied were foriegn and I swear they didn't look like their pictures and then the third lady got the job because we could clearly communicate with her what exactly we wanted done. Anyways, I stopped by on my lunch break to see how the house was looking and was just in "AH" of their work...amazing. The lady brought her sister as well to help out. I am just dying to get home and see how the rest of the house looks. They cleaned everywhere, even under my oven!!! All I can say is thak you, thank you, thank you, to my sister and mom. This was such a nice gesture. They didn't want me to stress out about my house since I work two jobs already and they didn't want me around the cleaning products since I am pregnant. Even thinking about cleaning my house wipes me out so hense the disaterous state it is in! Oh, my goodness this means so much to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Healthy Heartbeat!

I am on cloud nine and completely wiped out emotionally. I have been crying all morning. We went to the ultra-sound appointment this morning and we got to see our beautiful 8 week baby on the screen with a heart beat of 162 beats per minute. It was all so surreal and I felt like I was in a dream. I couldn't stop crying in the ultrasound room and was such a mess because I was so relieved and happy. Dh was just beaming holding my hand. It was one of the most special moments of my life! I am borrowing Dh's work computer to write this so it has to be brief but I just wanted to update you all that our little baby is healthy and measuring beautifully. Thank you all for your prayers!!!!!!!! I can't say enough to thank you for your support during this emotional time. My next appointment is in four weeks. I feel like I can breath a sigh of relief right now. I will post pic.s of the ultra sound as soon as I can...
xo

Just about two days left

Just about two days left before my ultra-sound. Whoo-hoo! I can't believe it is almost here. I spent this morning googling what an eight week ultrasound picture looks like so I know what to expect. Now if someone can just come knock me out until then because I am driving myself nuts!!!! haha.

Things have been crazy busy at work lately. Honestly I am really just overwhelmed with everything and my house is falling to pieces in the mean time. Just thought I would write a post and complain that I just can't get everything done that I want to get done in enough time. Ugh! Why can't I be Super Woman ;)

Progesterone results

The nurse said that my results are moderately low and not to worry. That is like telling me not to breath. Worrying just comes natually for me!!! Anyways, on dec. 21 my progesterone results were 23 and now on Jan. 5 the levels are at 18.9. (close to 19) but now in zone 2. I just have to trust God's will for me and my pregnancy. I am posting from my Sisters I-phone so this is going to have to be a short post. Does anyone have any experience with progesterone levels and pregnancy???????

Feeling sick and loving it

Last night I ate a small plate of noodles with spaghetti sauce and then a small pork chop with a little bit of mashed potatoes. I know this is a weird combination but I just couldn't decide what to eat...major cravings lately. Anyways, once I was done with that I drank a beer mug full of whole raw cow's milk. BIG MISTAKE!!! What was I thinking. Before I knew it I started to feel sick...all the smells of food were making nauseous and I had to leave and get away from the smell of food downstairs. So I went upstairs to my bedroom (which is always freezing) to get some cool air so I wouldn't (TMI) throw everything up. Luckily it all calmed down after about a half hour. I actually had some peace of mind not feeling well...I felt like "this is not normal for me, I feel pregnant" haha! I love being pregnant and going through all of the physical changes. This is all such a joy. Thank you God for this wonderful blessing!

A shout out to my sister

So my twin sister,C, finally has her blog up and running. She is new to this whole blogging community so if you want to stop over and say "hello" to her that would be awfully sweet. I am so glad she is finally blogging because now she will be able to get to know all of the wonderful friends I have made on this journey...thanks so much girls!

Trying to be at peace

I am trying to be at peace with God's will in my life right now. As far as I know things are going o.k. with the pregnancy. It is so hard not to read into Dr. H.ilger's words yesterday when his nurse called and said that my results were "adequate" and send them the ultrasound results when I get them. Does that mean barely sufficient? It is so hard not to over analyze every result and test that I have done. I really need to stay away from google because it is not doing me any good searching HCG levels all over the Internet because when it comes down to it it is the ultrasound that is the defining moment of how things are going.
I talked to a lady yesterday that I receive raw milk from and she was so encouraging about trusting God's plan for me. She has had about 6-7 miscarriages and is so devoted to the Lord. I am not sure what religion she is but to hear her talk about her trust in the Lord's plan for them is just so inspiring. I think every time I begin to worry about things I am going to say a quick prayer instead and that will make me feel better than giving in to worrying so much...I have decided to call in sick to work on the day of my ultra-sound, Jan. 14th, just because I don't want to be stressed out with having to return to work if we receive bed news. I know that sounds negative but it happened last time and I was a mess. So whether it is good or bad news i am not going to work that day for sure!

Second set of HCG levels**updated

The nurse just called and gave me my second set of numbers. The first was 6003 the second is 9997 over a period of 2.6 days. She said this is perfectly normal and I am taking her word for it because I really don't know what to think. I am just trying to be at peace about this and not worry. Prayers please!...what do you all think about these numbers? They are doubling every 3.5 days right now and I read that when you reach 6-7 weeks it starts to slow down to doubling about every 3.5 days...I can't wait just to have some peace of mind about everything!

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So I talked with the nurse at PPVI and she said that the results looked great and normal...what a relief. I think I just need to chill out! haha! I have my acupuncture appt. this evening and I think I'll have hime treat me for my anxiety because I just need to relax ;)